Growing & Expanding
“If you want something done, you’ve got to do it yourself.” FALSE.
I could hear Sebastian say these words in the next room (yes, Olivia was watching The Little Mermaid) and no sooner did I realize, I was mouthing this line aloud right along with him.
I knew this movie and these words so well, that I could literally quote along WITHOUT THOUGHT.
The moment I heard myself speak these words out loud, I literally sounded out — I’M SO OVER THIS MESSAGE, SEBASTIAN.
I realized I’ve been carrying these words with me since I was Olivia’s age and not only has it left me feeling solely-responsible for everything and everyone around me, but it’s also left me feeling alone, tired, and one might say, 😆 control freak-esq.
No thanks, Sebastian. I’m not down with that way of life any more.
Most recently I’ve taken on the idea that I can no longer do it all by myself, and it’s led me to hiring a handful of people who find joy in the areas I was ready to let go of, saying no to things, and being honest with my husband (and myself) about what I can no longer carry.
It’s been freeing, and most importantly, it’s relieved so much anxiety and stress that if I couldn’t do it, things would fall a part.
And guess what? Nothing has fallen a part.
If anything, things are growing and expanding more abundantly than ever.
I’m so grateful to be taking steps in this direction.
To be clear, it’s not something I have figured out just yet, but I’m finally finding joy in figuring it out WITH the help of others.
Who’s totally feeling this? 💓✌🏼